CHAPTER 2

(Still) Flashback : Mode On

“Taehyung-ah? Are you there?”

Someone asked outside my room while I'm lying down on the bed.

"Nugu-ya?" I asked irresponsively.

"Na.. Yura"

I suddenly get up.

Yura? What time is it? It's 11.00 pm. Why she came here at this time?

Then I rushed to open the door. And there was Yura, standing in front of my door. Her lips trembled and her eyes swollen. Her hair was such a mess, and there was a slight teardrop on her cheeks. I gulped. I felt bitter when I’m seeing her like that.

“Am I bother you? Are you have time? Can I enter? I.. I need to tell you something..”

“Of course you can.. kaja!”

I held her hand, guided her to enter my room.

“You wanna drink? I’ll take it for you..” I offered.

“No, thanks V.. What are you doing by the way?”

“Nothing, just lied down on my bed. Umm,, do you wanna talk at balcony?” I offered again while took my grey sweater. She just nodded her head lightly.

“Kaja!..” I held her hand again and guided her to balcony.

Yura sat on her favourite place, like she did for many years when she came to my room.

I glanced at Yura who still looked with blank expression on her face.

“I never thought about that, V..” said Yura broke the silence of the night.

I looked at her.

“About what?”

“Mark..”

I rounded my eyes madly. It’s so obvious that my assumption up till now was right. Yura was changed because of the incident last night. I gulped, because I didn’t know what I had to say.

“What’s going on actually..?” I asked calmly.

“I decided to leave him, V..”

“Wait.. Are you on a date?”

“Well, yes.. I’m so sorry because I didn’t tell you anything about us. I’m about to tell you but something happen, so yeah.. I just tell you that right now..”

I just exhaled. I looked at her. She looked down, tried to hide her face from me.

I lifted up her chin, made her facing me.

“No needed  to say sorry. You know, right? I understand you more than anybody. Just tell me everything. If you wanna cry, just cry. Just let go of your sadness here. I’ll always be here for you..” I said while wiping the tears that was flowing down on her cheeks.

“Just tell me everything...” I said again. She nodded her head lightly.

“The first time I got along with him, that’s all because of school festival. Did you remember? We could performing our band because Mark gave us recommendation. From the beginning, just simple things that we have done. We exchanged phone number, sending messages everynight. Then he made me feel so special. I felt so comfortable when he was with me, I could tell him everything, I could be myself when I was with him. Even he said that I was a star in his life, and my presence was like the starlight and the moon light in the sky night..”

My eyebrows lifted. I know that his reputation in the school was very popular.

“Then, what’s wrong with your relationship?”

“There was someone from his past, who never he could forget completely. They had been together since middle school. When I could get along with him finally, I wished that he’ll move on from his past. But I was wrong..” said Yura.

“Who’s that girl by the way..?” I asked.

“Irene..” said Yura slightly. I shocked.

“What? Irene from acting class?” I asked. That was unbelievable.

“Yeah, Irene... She’s so beautiful, right? She loved Mark very much..” Yura gave me a forced smile.

“I know that he’ll never forget her. I always tried to be the best girlfriend ever for him. I tried to hide all fears, jealousy, disappointment, and sadness because the fact that he still loved her..” Yura explained.

“So, now you know that he wasn’t really loved you after you read a message in Mark’s phone..” I said unconsciously. Those words made Yura glared at me.

“Where have you know from???”

Our eyes met. I panicked. I couldn’t say anything.

“What do be written there?” I said nervously.

Yura just exhaled. She looked toward the sky night.

“Thanks for love and sacrifice that you give for me. Thanks for waiting me till today.. That was Irene's message for him..”

I looked toward her.

“Her confession made me realized that I just someone who Mark chose for filling up his empty heart while he waited for Irene. He’ll never ready to replaced Irene with any body. I’m so stupid because I’m too naïve to admit it…” said Yura while sob her heart out.

I don’t know what I have to do, so I just embraced her and stroke her hair softly.

“I’m so stupid, right?” said Yura again while wiping her tears.

I just exhaled.

“Love is never wrong, Yura… sometimes we choose to see what we want to see than what we have to see..”

“Ah, geurae??”

I nodded my head slightly. Is it wrong if we fall in love? Love is just a feeling that we can’t predicted when it comes and for whom it comes, isn’t it? We just can go through it well, and get ready if it chooses to leave us.

“I’m tired, Taehyung-ah.. He said that Irene was just his past who must he forgot. But he still set Irene’s photo as wallpaper on his smartphone and still in touch with her, so how could he forgot about her? How could he moved on from her if he still doing that?”

I just looking at her while wiped the tears that flew on her cheeks. I don’t know why my heart broken into pieces when I’m looking at her.

“He could smiling right now and his eyes was more sparkled than before. I’m glad to see him like that..”

“I’m not sure if I could make you smiling brightly again or not. But I’ll make sure that someday there will be someone who makes you smiling brightly and cheerful, and of course will makes you happy, and today’s bitterness will never repeated again.. Naman mideo Yura-yah... Smile..!!!” I said while wiped her tears and made the foolish expression to make her smiled again. Then she laugh, just for a second, but that was very valuable for me.

“Gomawo Taehyung-ah..” said Yura while smiling at me. I looked at my watch and the clockwise pointed at 12.15 am. I told her to go home because it was so late at night. Then I took her home while holding her hand.

Before she entered her house, I hugged her once again.

“seulpeo hajima Yura-yah.. I’ll always be here for you. If you need me, just call me. I’ll come to you..” I said. Still hugging her.

“Jinjja gomawo Taehyung-ah.. You’ve been take care of me. Dasi hanbeon gomawo..” said Yura while letting go of me. I nodded my head lightly. I’ll doing everything for you Yura-yah.

When she entered her house, suddenly she turn away. Made her facing me. Then she smiled at me and waved her hand. I gave her smile back. Because I love you, Yura.

*** Flashback : Mode Off ***

 

“Yah! V! What are you doing..??!” Yura’s voice makes me back to reality. I just smile at her.

“Aniya.. I’m just concentrating on the road..” I reply.

“Because I’m asking you and you’re not answering it..”

“Repeat it again. What are you asking about?”

“I ask, what do you think if the closing song for our performance is Haruman?”

“Arasseo...” I reply with weary smile on my face.

However, that song will always represent my feelings toward her.