Chapter 1

"CONGRATULATIONS!”

 

 

Everyone shouted as they cheered on Big Bang on the success of their comeback. Yeah, were at the club spending a hell of our time partying and celebrating our oppas’ success. Of course Yang Hyun Suk sajangnim is present, he cannot miss this chance to celebrate his kids’ huge success. The YG artists are also here, name it to my oppas Jinusean, Teddy, Xin, Kush, Ben Baller, and to my 2NE1 unnies.  My dongsaengs Hayi, AKMU, WINNER, iKON and of course other trainees who ditched their trainings are all here.

 

All the people who were close to Big Bang oppas are here, including her.

 

 

“Wow, all of them are here.” I muttered as I watched my closest people dancing, laughing, and having fun.

“Yah! Chaerin-ah! Why are you here alone? You should be partying with them!” Dara unnie shouted as she took a seat next to me. Yes. SHOUTED.

“Kkamjjagiya! Aghhhhh unnie! Do you really have to shout in front of me?”

“YESSSS!” she shouted. AGAIN.

“Aish! Why do you keep on doing that? It’s really deafening you know!” I scowled as I faked a mad expression on my face. Hah.

“Aw, Chae, I’m sorry okay? I just did that because I saw you spacing out. Please don’t be mad at me, wifey.” She said while pouting like a crazy kid. She’s always doing that aegyo because she knows that I can’t resist it. Heol~

“Unnie, I am not spacing out okay? I’m just watching them have fun. God, I can't believe they're my sunbaes and hoobaes. They looked like wild animals I see on Nat Geo!” I said as I took a sip on my strawberry juice. I don’t feel like drinking alcohol right now.

“Wait what? You’ll just watch them here? And really Chae? Strawberry juice?” she said as she pointed out my beloved strawberry juice.

“And what’s wrong with me drinking strawberry juice here in the corner? Huh?” I said as I fixed a bitchy-but-not-so-bitchy look at her.

“Nothing, it’s just that I’m not used on you being an introvert or something. I mean, where’s the fun if you’ll just keep spacing out here like a cow? That’s not my nappeun gizibe you know!” she said while dancing the nail-drying part on my song. God, unnie is just so… whatever.

“Excuse me, I am not an introvert, I am not spacing out like a cow, aaaand I am still your nappeun gizibe. Okay? And please, stop dancing like that! People might think you’re crazy.” I said. Oops, my mistake. She’s actually crazy.

“Wifey, the last time I checked, club is for dancing, not for sitting and strawberry juice drinking.”

“Aish! Why do you keep on blaming my strawberry juice unnie?!” I said as I glared at her. It’s confirmed. She has a thing on my drink.

“I am not blaming your beloved drink, Chae. I just want to tell you to join them.” She said. Ughhh, this unnie will just keep on bugging me to party with them till the night ends. Good luck, Lee Chaerin.

“Unnie, I don’t want to party, okay? I just want to be alone. To think about things…” I muttered as I looked down.

“To think about what? That you’re an introvert? Pfft.” she joked.

 

“UGHHH! I SAID I’M NOT AN INTROVERT!” I screamed. Wait, I.. what?

 

 

 

“Hey Chae! What introvert shit are you screaming out there? C’mon, join us here!” Teddy oppa said. Luckily, my scream is too loud that it made all of them gaze on our direction. Including him. Damn it.

“Yeah, c’mon Chae! Show us the baddest female! Let’s dance!” Seungri said while dancing seductively. Yes, he spent 24 years of his life being a pervert. How pitiful.

“Let’s go Chaerin unnie!” the trainees cheered. Ughhh, this kids.

“Guys, listen, I—“ I was in the middle of my spiel when suddenly a loud music boomed the whole club.

 

 

Nan nappeun gijibae nanan nappeun gijibae nan nappeun gijibae

Where all my bad girls at?

 

 

The crazy people cheered and danced to the beat of my song.

 

“That’s what I’m talkin’ about! C’mon CL! Get your lazy ass and dance with us!” Bom unnie said while bingu dancing. Really unnie?

 

“CL! CL! CL! CL!” They all cheered. God, please help these guys.

 

I was in the middle of debating with myself whether I’ll join them or not when a voice prickled my whole system.

 

 

 

“C’mon Chae-ah, come with us.” Jiyong oppa said while looking straight into my eyes. His face was emotionless but why do I feel like he’s begging me to come? Aish, Chae. Stop thinking about crazy things.

Dara unnie nudged me. Oh, I forgot that she’s still next to me. Sorry, unnie.

“Chae..” she said.

“Don’t worry unnie, I’m okay… I will be okay.” I whispered to her then smiled.

 

 

I walked towards them as I felt Jiyong’s stare on my peripheral vision. He doesn’t look anywhere but me… I keep on looking anywhere but him.

I was in front of them when I had a bit of a confidence to look at him.

 

 

“Okay then, I’ll join you guys.” I said then smiled.

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Dance, I wanna dan dan dan dan dance

Wow fantastic baby

 

 

The club went wild and all the people are dancing to Big Bang’s Fantastic Baby. Well, who wouldn’t have when the 5 boys were up the stage to slay it, right? All the people I know were moving their bodies to the beat. They’re all hyped up, well, including me. Who would’ve thought that I’d end up dancing my ass off when the only reason why I came here is because my unnies begged me to. It’s not that I don’t want to come. Of course, I want to support them but it’s just that I’m too busy on my upcoming album and I’m too jetlagged to party this hard.

 

But now I’m partying hard. Cool, Chae.

 

“I thought you don’t want to party?” Dara unnie said while laughing at me like a fool. Well, who wouldn’t laugh when you heard a chick said that she wanted to be alone then suddenly joined those crazy people and became one of them? I wouldn’t blame her.

“I thought so, too.” I sighed.

“So, he still has that effect on you, eh?” She nudged me while arching his brows up and down.

“Huh? Who?” I said.

“Whoa, Chae. You really want me to say his name right now? Hahaha. Well okay then, it’s Jiy---“ I quickly covered her mouth before she could even finish.

“Stop unnie! I know who you’re talking about, okay? Don’t say it out loud. Besides, you’re the one who wanted me to party right? I’m just doing what you want.” I defended.

“Mmmmmkay. If you say so.” She said while still eyeing at me.

“Stop that look, unnie. I know what you’re thinking.”

“Huh? What am I thinking?” she said.

“Hmm, Youngbae oppa?” I teased her. Yes, that’s the only way to stop her.

“Ughhhh, okay, you win. I’m out.” She said then walked away from me. Huh. She always gets shy and walks out when it’s about Youngbae oppa. That girl, really. She’s too obvious.

 

 

Tired of dancing, I walked out to the club’s balcony to get some fresh air. Pleasing myself with those building lights and the night sky full of stars, I closed my eyes and feel the cool breeze of Seoul city.

 

“Ahhh, I missed this city.” I muttered.

 

“This city misses you, too.” A voice said. I know that voice.

“J—jiyong oppa.” I said. Damn, why am I stuttering by just saying his name? Calm down, Chae.

He smiled warmly while looking at me. It took a million of seconds of us staring at each other before I could even say a word.

 

“Uhm, congratulations on your comeback. Welcome back to Hallyu, Mr. G Dragon.” I joked to ease the tension I’m probably the only one who’s feeling.

 

“I guess it’s me who needs to tell you that, Chaerin… Welcome back.” He said then flashed his crooked smile.

 

 

That smile… The smile I longed to see. The smile that makes my heart pound like crazy. The smile that also tore my heart into pieces.

 

 

Yes, he’s Kwon Ji Yong. G Dragon for those who admire him.

 

 

The man who killed the world with his great talent in music.

 

The man behind those powerful and exceptional songs.

 

The man I admire the most.

 

The man who makes my whole being as crazy as hell.

 

 

The man that I'm foolishly inlove with.

 

 

The man that I can't have.