Incomplete

Description

This a fiction story about a girl losing the one she loved. She does something horribly wrong, very very wrong. Enjoy reading :) This is my first story on Fanfic Overflow so i hope i have reached your standards. I would call this type of style of writing deep and emotional. while you are reading see if you can solve what happened to the person the girl loved.

Foreword

This a fiction story about a girl losing the one she loved. She does osmething horribly wrong, very very wrong. Enjoy reading :) This is m first story on Fanfic Overflow so i hope i have reached your standards. I would call this type of style of writing deep and emotional. while you are reading see if you can solve what happened to the person the girl loved. 

 was a normal girl, a normal year 12 studen. Not anymore. Now I am a horrible, disgracful and guilty year 12 student that shouldnt be alive. My life wasnt worth to be given to me. I dont deserve to be breathing this air. I dont even desrve to be telling you this. As i speak the ords spoken i promise myslef to never love again. I dont want to be alive...... but this is what i have been through. I miss you, a alot.

Too bad I’m alive. I wouldn’t mind being alive if I were with you. You changed my life and I destroyed yours. I’m sorry.

You’re gone now. It’s all over.

I can’t go back and change time nor can I go into the future. What is my life now? It’s become something I don’t even understand anymore. How can I move on with my life without feeling the grief of my loss? Where have I ended up? In this trap is where my own fears have taken over me.

My fear crawled into my mind and completely ruled. I have nowhere to go. I feel so empty. The more I think about it the more I feel shattered and broken. My heart has sunk and still hasn’t floated back to the top. It most likely never will.

I remember the things we did, the words we spoke and the memories we made. I remember our first greeting. That moment where I was completely blank, nothing was on my radar but you. That first hello put a smile on my face; made my heart beat fast and my mind go crazy.

I had a fast forward.

I could see what I wanted the future to be like. Without thinking I fell for you. Without thinking I let myself into your heart. Without thinking I loved you.

I had thought wrong. My fast forward had let me down. No, I was the one that let me down.

The day when fear trapped me, I didn’t know what I was doing. I was afraid of losing you. I shouldn’t have made you felt smaller, I didn’t think it was that big a deal. I just didn’t want to be replaced, I was being selfish. I wasn’t worth your time nor will I ever be.

My actions spoke more than my words. I became so paranoid that I let my own fear run around my mind attacking and killing every good thought I ever had about us.

I made you go through the worst. I shouldn’t be alive. Even though this has all happened, I take my head out of my locker and wake up to reality. I don’t know how to show how miserable I feel so I’ll just move on with a fake smile as I hold this terrifying memory with me forever. I had lost you and I know I will never see you again. This heavy weight on my shoulders can never be lifted.  NEVER!

I always said that you were my moon and I was your star.

You were my moon.

I was your star.

Well that’s how it used to be.

Now you’re gone, without you I have this feeling. What do they call it? The feeling of being incomplete?....