Friendship starts Pt. 2

Merebith's POV:

In our 5th grade, I realized something.

Something that I didn't expect.

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I have a crush at him

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And that feeling makes me feel afraid.

Afraid that our friendship will ruin because of that feeling. I don't want to end our relationship.

Starting that day that I have a crush on him, I starting to hate myself because of it.

I know that when he knows about my feelings, our closeness will gone.

I don't like that to happen, so I decided to keep it in my own. Even I started to get hurt because of it.

I started to know many things about him that no one else knows about it. I know he trust me in his secret and I don't have any intention to ruin it.

He asked me who I like. Of course, I can't tell him that it is him that I like. I picked other guy classmate of us. He is Lance.

It's not hard to pick because Lance already my friend, but not that close. We can talk, but not always. Some of my classmates, as well as Christian, teased us. That's why I picked him to be my crush even it's not true.

Christian also told me who is his crush. She's Janice from 6th grade, one year older than us.

It breaks my heart when he told me about her.

And because I need to hide everything, I teased him about her.

I know I'm stupid acting normal but deep inside not.

Our other classmates told us we're destined to each other because after we met in 3rd grade and became seatmates. Until 5th grade we are seatmate and also we are always in the same group.

The memory that I will never forget was we our level joined a performance in our school. It's like a waltz.

It makes me nervous when he was my partner. I don't know what will I feel, will I feel happy or angry?

We always had a practice, so we always together. And because we need to dance together, we need to hold each other hand. I always calm myself not to feel nervous oor else he will noticed it because of the cold in my hand.

One time, we are practicing when we started to ague in some useless reason.

I started to call him gay because he always fight against me. I was surprised on what he told.

He'll kiss me to prove to me that he's not a guy

Because I'm a brave girl, I continue calling him that name.

I was speechless when he leaned closer towards me. And that let me pushed him away from me. I don't like this feeling.

All he did makes me more like him. I want to forget this feeling, but he's the one who making it more visible.

He'll do many sweet things for me. And the same time bad things like arguing.

One time when we were in the other building and waiting for the rain to stop. We were together standing in the doorway. Thankfully, our classmates help us. I saw him wanted to get the umbrella to our classmate. I was just standing their while watching them when I saw my other classmate went to me. He don't have a choice and share one ambrella to our girl classmate. While I share an umbralla to our guy classmate. When we were in our classroom, he scolded me because my uniform was already wet. He told me that he lend me his extra shirt. I was touch that time, but decline it because I don't want to make this feeling went back completely.

The other time, It's my birthday. I didn't expect him to give me a gift. I am really happy that he gave me a gift. He gave me a pink keychain. He knows that my favorite color is pink. I smiled when I saw him put it in my phone. I know that he was doing all this because I am his friend.

He also went to my house to eat lunch together with me and my brother. I was really mad at him when he force me to let him go to my house. I disallowed him to go because I don't know what will my parents will react. A guy classmate of mine went to my house to eat lunch together with me. But I don't have a choice because he already come with us to our house. And that time, my mother know him. He become a part of my family. He was always in my house and we ate lunch together.

While he was doing all of it. I always remind myself that he was doing it because I am his friend, a best friend.

We still argue, but we are now close.

But I can't help but to like him.

I started to have crush at him because he's nice, caring, a gentleman, and a true friend to me. He never fails to make me laugh and he's the only one I can trust.