Unspoken Truth

 

“You always were so much superior than me. Smart, handsome, skilled... You always beat me. I hated you, but I couldn't live without you either.

 

As we became a team, you, Sakura, Kakashi and I, it was the first thing I had had that came close to a family. It was something I couldn't lose at any costs. Bonds. The bonds you now try so desperately to destroy.

 

The times we had. The good times, the happy memories. Maybe they are hard to remember. There were to many sad memories just before you left.

 

You left. Left me here, calling after you. Left me to nightmares, sadness and loss. You hoped our bond would be broken if you left. Do you really think it would be so easy? That I could stop caring about you, thinking about you, loving you? Fool! And I who always thought you were so clever. Sad to break it to you, but you failed. The bond has only become stronger. And you know it don't you? Somewhere deep inside of you, where your hate and loss doesn't exist. You can feel my pull, you fear it, and yet..not. Yet you yearn. Yearn for love.

 

Remember our kiss. The kiss who changed everything?

We were sitting in class, I was as usual jealous of the girls around you, you didn't even notice. I had jumped in front of you, staring hatefully into your black, pretty, yet, if looking long enough, warm eyes.

Suddenly out of no where our lips had met. The kiss. Your soft lips linked with mine. Your taste lingering still, when we suddenly parted, both blushing madly. You liked it didn't you? The touch of my lips? The looks you gave me afterwards, the awkwardness.

Because it became awkward! We handled it though, I by fooling around, you by scowling at me.

 

Then the mission came. Our first real mission. Zabuza and Haku. The fight. Remember?

We were surrounded by Haku's deadly mirrors. Both of us barely able to stand on our feet, breathing heavily. It seemed hopeless. Even though you had found a way to hurt him, your chakra was gone. It couldn't end well.

Haku choose me to die first. He flew out of the mirror and was just about to finish me of when you, miraculously, saw it all and stepped in front me, saving me. I will never forget. Your face just before you fell into my arms, gorgeous. But then you were in my arms, limbless. I thought I had lost you, it was unbearable.

You know what happened next. I lost control.

 

I visited you in the hospital, you were happy. You did, of cause, not show it, but I could tell, I always could.

We sat there in the small room, silent for a moment. The silence was slightly awkward, and I didn't stay for long.

I told you to get better, and then I left.

Just before I was gone you whispered the words, words which are glued to my mind. Words who were destined to be life changing. “I...love you”

 

Barely a whisper, but I heard them. I felt them.

 

I was a scaredy-cat, I was so afraid to tell you how I felt, too scared, and that was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I lost you.

 

My missing reply, telling you my feelings, was what made you give up on everything and leave the village.

Still, as I almost got you, I still wasn't able to tell you. I was a coward. I failed the mission, Sakura, the whole villages and you. It was unforgivable. You hate me, for my lack of response, for my cowardliness, and it's quite understandable. I don't deserve you love. I didn't work for it, and more importantly I didn't fight for it.

 

I'm sorry Sasuke. I know this won't make you come back, and won't make you stop hating me, but still I have to say it. Just once.

 

I love you!”